The Art of Fulfillment

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Fly Free
I feel like a baby bird fighting to break out of it’s shell…or a moth that is turning into a butterfly, but it’s still cocooned in it’s safe little chrysalis, not yet ready to fight it’s way out…This is how I’m feeling at this moment in time, it’s been happening for a few years now but it seems to be gaining momentum…
 
 

I knew my time in Bali last year would have a profound effect on me (I knew it before I even left).  But I never in a million years anticipated the fallout and ripple effect that that time away (and giving up everything I knew to be solid and stable to have that experience), was going to bring…

I’m a planner.  I’m also a jumper.  I plan things (so I can have some control) but also if something feels right (gut feeling/intuition), I generally go for it without too much thought as to possible consequences (trust?stupidity?).  This has led me on countless paths to many wonderful experiences and the meeting of so many amazing, talented and beautiful people. I wouldn’t change those encounters for the world.

So, it was last year that I gave up life as I had known it for the past 40 odd years (regular reliable job, nice home, good friends, good family) and sojourned to Bali to do some volunteer teaching for five months.

I have never, not had a job.  My Dad always drummed into us “don’t leave your job unless you have another to go to”.  I only did that once before and it scared me to death (however, I managed to get another job the next week so all was well again).  I was so ready for this trip to Bali and a life change that it never crossed my mind that getting a job would be an issue when I got back to New Zealand.

Having been safely encased with a good employer for 10 years I was completely out of the loop as to what the actual job market is doing out there.  Needless to say, after countless job applications and a handful of interviews in the six months I’ve been back, I have only managed 11 weeks of temping work in that time…

I’ve moved myself to Tauranga and really love it here.  The energy of the place feels right for me and I know I’m slowly letting go of mental and emotional layers that no longer serve me…the process is painful, but it must be done in order to move forward and emerge from the chrysalis…

I love this video from Tony Robbins where he discusses the “invisible forces” that make us do what we do…

An inspiring woman named Nancy (who is a colleague in the website course I did in January has written a wonderful blog recently that I totally relate to (thanks Nancy, I borrowed Tony from you :-)).  And, I loved her reply to a comment on her blog where she said:

“Love is the magic of the universe – and feeling loved is being free from fear’s talons.” 

I know the Universe is once again guiding me to where I need to be and what I need to let go of…so I’m fine tuning my intuition and even if things don’t seem ‘right’ on the outside or what I ‘should’ be doing, I’m going to Trust that it’s all working out exactly how it’s meant to…that I’ll be led to where I need to be… to learn the lessons that I need to learn… to break out of that chrysalis and become the butterfly I was meant to be… and fly free.

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  1. The abundance of the universe is awesome. You are obviously at the crossroads Paula and a new chapter of your life is just beginning – i wonder what it will be? How exciting. I know with me when I let go of the fear and know I will be ok – I usually am.

  2. beautiful post and thanks for the quote and the link to my site! and how dare you snaffle my tony! he’s gorgeous! i hope your dreams and intuitions come true and probably the sooner, the better! keep up the great work! 😀

    • Haha, thanks Nancy, you’re very welcome. I love what you write too and hadn’t come across Tony before (have heard of him but never seen him), now I’m a big fan – he’s awesome! All the very best for you too, I’m sure the winds of change are coming for both of us xx

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